Isabella’s Wish – Raising money to help a little girl to walk like her twin sister.

This is a quick post to try help raise awareness for a little girl called Isabella, who lives close to me in Essex and is in need of donations to help fund her trip to the USA for surgery to help her to walk.

Isabella's Wish to walk - Helping raise funds for life changing surgery for this little girl
Isabella wants to be able to run and play with her siblings.

Isabella is an identical twin and was born prematurely.

After many months of appointments, tests and therapies she was diagnosed with Spastic Diplegia, a form of Cerebral Palsy.

Her family is raising money for her to travel to America for pioneering surgery that will allow her to walk and be just like her twin sister, Scarlett.

Her mum says “Isabella is a very happy and cheeky little girl. She has so much determination to walk and she just wants to be able to run and play with her siblings with ease. As a parent, it is very distressing to have to sit back and watch her struggle on a daily basis. We have made Isabella a promise to grant her of her wish to walk.”

If you would like to donate to Isabella’s wish you can do so here

You can keep up to date with Isabella’s journey on Facebook page below.

Facebook: Isabella’s Wish to Walk
Just Giving page: Isabellaswishtowalk

Please donate if you are able to.
If you cannot donate you still help by sharing Isabella’s story so that other may be able to help.
Thank you
B xx


The first day of school – The mixed emotions of a special needs family.

Despite being able to send Pud to the year group I wanted to (Here’s the post about that particular fight) today is still a sad day for me.

Pud is off to his first day of school!

BAck to School - The extra stresses of a special needs mum on the first day of school.
My Pud (with Pip gatecrashing) in his back to school photo.

All mums have worries about their precious babies starting this huge new chapter of their lives but as with most other milestones in life there is a special level of worrying reserved for us special needs families.

There are the usual worries of course. Will they miss me? Will they make friends? Will they be able to keep up with their peers?……..and the list goes on.

But for me at least I have an extra level of worring to do. How will he cope in a completely new scenario and new routine? Will the staff be able to understand his subtle gestures and his own personal way of signing for what he wants? What happens if he gets bullied? Will they know when he is hurt? Will he make it through the day without needing a nap from all the stimulation? Will they help him with his lunch and watch that he doesn’t try to take others lunches and cause a fight?

These are just some of the things that will be running through my mind until 3 pm.
The thing is when most kids come out of school they will tell you all about their day. For me, I have to find out through his 1:1 and if she doesn’t see something or doesn’t tell me, then I will never know! It’s a lot of faith to put in someone that you’ve only met briefly for a couple of times!

The first day is usually the most stressful. I know when M started school, the relief that flooded over me when she came out at home time, beaming smile on her face and excited to tell me al the wonderful things she had done that she would be ok.

With Pud though the worries won’t end today. Every single day is going to be as hard and as worrying as the first. That’s probably one of the crappiest sides of being an Autism parent ( or any other special needs parent come to that!) Autism doesn’t take a day of so neither can I.

As it happens, today  he seemed to have a really good day! So that will make tomorrow slightly easier to take. The fact he came in home and straight away put himself to bed tells me the end of the week is going to be a struggle! 🙁

Watch this space….. I suspect a meltdown is on the way! (For Pud and for me!)


Sharing Sunday – Shairng the small business love.

Sharing Sunday is back!
It’s been a few weeks but I’m going to be starting my sharing Sunday posts again to give a little boost to business and products that I love.
Go and check them out and show some love if you like what you see!

B. Stean Footwear

First up is a local shop I have been wanting to visit for a while.
My boy is about to start school so the nightmare shopping trip for school shoes was due.
Having chubby feet usually means a trip to Clarks along with an obligatory meltdown due to the bright lights, loud music, and crowds, let alone the fact he HATES having his feet touched and measured!

B. Stean Footwear in Chelmsford are a family run store with good old fashioned customer service.
B. Stean Footwear in Chelmsford is a family run store with good old fashioned customer service.

Cue a visit to B.Stean. The shop is small, family run and stacked high with shoes! The staff are extremely friendly and professional and it reminds me a bit of the old school shops where they know your name and nothing is too much trouble!
I explained about the coming meltdown and how Pud hates having his feet measured.
To my absolute amazement, Mr. Stean did a measurement by sight! That’s how good they are!
Not only that he managed to get the new shoes on his feet before he even realised what was happening! Long story short the perfectly fitting Clarks shoes were on, checked and off again Pud could react!

After sharing my delight at the awesome service I had friends tell me they travel for several miles just to visit for new shoes and I promise you if you do too you won’t regret it!

Facebook: B. Stean Footwear

Secret Hamper

Sharing Sunday - Secret hamper

When I was pregnant with Pip and unbeknown to me, my mum entered me into a competition to win a hamper. I only realised this when I was told I had won! I got to meet the guys behind the company to pick up my hamper and I have to say their business is a great one!
You can buy a hamper for so many different people/ scenarios and have it delivered either from yourself or anonymously.

Sharing sunday - Collecting my secret hamper.
Me, with my mum and Pud meeting the secret hamper superheroes to collect my hamper

My newborn hamper contained a range of items from the basics like nappies, wipes, nappy cream and cotton buds, to little extras like a bar of chocolate for the new mum and a pack of pasta and jar of sauce for a quick and easy dinner on the first night home!
Other hampers include student, elderly neighbour, 4 legged friends and the Essex hamper which is full of locally sourced products.

Facebook: Secret Hamper



Delaying school – Our fight for a reception place for our summer born child.

Under current law, children in England must be in education from the term after their fifth birthday. However…..some would argue that fact as reception class in primary school starts in September following a child’s 4th birthday. Should you choose to wait until your child reaches compulsory school age (CSA) many schools, and indeed many local authorities (LA) in charge of school admissions will try to push you into starting your child in year 1 and skipping reception class altogether!

Reception class at 5 - How we fought the system and won to get a reception start at compulsory school age

A bit of background on my story…

My oldest daughter was born mid August. When she started recpetion class she was just 4 years and 2 weeks old. I considered her ready for school though. She was, I thought, quite bright and happy to leave me sobbing at the door as she excitedly went into her classroom and found her coat peg etc. There were kids in that class room a full 11 months older than her.
Let me put that into persective for a second……My cousin has just had a baby a month ago, her son cannot hold his head up properly yet. He will be going into the same year group at school as my youngest daughter who can already recognise and point to members of the family when asked. She is almost walking and nearly talking. Yet these 2 children are going to be held to exactly the same standard when it comes to school assesments and tests. It’s just not fair!

Back to my eldest….So school is great and she loves it and makes friends and all is well…..awesome! 😀

Well not quite, you see, as I mentioned above children with almost an entire years worth of life experience and development were in the same class, being held to the same standards and naturally they were doing better than my girl. By the time she got to year 2 she was labeled as being too far behind her peers and needed extra help to keep up , a slow learner. I believe the term additional needs was used at one point!  By the time year 6 rolls around she is having extra tuition in the mornings before school and someone to help her in class to keep up!

Knowing this had happened to my summer born daughter I had  a dilemma approaching fast for my autistic son!

The Fight Begins

So as I mentioned my boy has Autism. He is completely non verbal and has delays in several areas of development. As the time to register for a school place approached we talked to his professionals and made the decision that he was not going to be even close to ready for school at age 4!
We contacted the local authority and asked about the process of applying for an Out of Cohort education (Using the phrase out of cohort instead of delayed start is important when talking to officials so that they are clear you are not just delaying or ‘deffering’ your childs start date unitl later in the same year!).
We were told that we needed to apply for schools in the normal way and then contact them via email with any eveidence to support or case. (We did exactly that, including reports from his consultant paediatrician, support worker and his speech and language therapist.)
The LA would then go to the head teachers of all the school in our application to seek their opinion. If they all agree  (remember that bit, it’s important later!) we would be able to apply for a reception place the following school year.
We get a reply a week or so later stating our application was successful and we could apply for a reception place the next year and if we wanted to go ahead we would need to cancel this years application. We did so and all was well…………sort of!

Their Mistake!

All was well and quiet for the next few months, the boy was at nursery and doing well in his second year there and we were ready to re apply for his school place.
We had to do it the old fashioned way because the system would not recognise his date of birth due to him being a year older than the other reception starters. This meant an agonizing wait to see if we got our chosen school (i.e. the school 10 doors down from our house!) via snail mail.

A couple of days before it arrived we had a bit of a shock though. We were in the final stages of an EHCP (Statement of additional needs in ‘old money’) and when the school were contacted about being named as his chosen placement we were told they would not, and had never agreed, to placing our son in Reception out of cohort!

I was distraught! The whole agonising (and it truely was) decision to hold him back a year was taken in the knowledge that he would still have that very important first year to introduce school life gently via reception class. Now……when it is far too late to do anything about it I am told he can’t have that after all!

Apparently someone, somewhere, was told that this school didn’t agree and never bothered to pass that information on! (remeber that bit before about all the schools having to agree!?)

So, after much backwards and forwards between us, his support professionals, the pre school and the school we were still stuck exactly where we started! The school would not budge at all and were adamant it was “against their policy” to allow out of cohort applications.

To really rub salt in the wound the school placement letter arrived a few days after this bombshell was dropped……it said he had a place in reception at our chosen school for this year!

Unfortunately (…..for them), they severely underestimated the strength and determination and mother of a special needs child who feels backed into a corner over the rights of her child! I scoured every single bit of every single policy I could find and discovered no such policy existed!
I asked them to show me the policy and highlight the bit in question, that was when the story changed and suddenly it wasn’t about policy anymore.
They changed their story!
I had them on the ropes and they knew it!

Yes it took me months of fighting and I’m not gonna lie, it almost cost me marriage and my sanity. I spent half of our family holiday this year curled up in a ball, sobbing into a pillow about how I had failed our son and ruined his chance at a normal school life forever!
I blamed myself and genuinely thought I was losing my mind and imagining things in policies that weren’t really there!
Everytime I wrote to someone for help or advice they all seeemed to say the same thing.
The school don’t do that so you’ll have to find another school or suck it up and start him in year 1……EVERYONE! I went to the manager of school admissions, the independent special needs service SENDIASS, to Statutory Assesment who were in charge of the EHCP regarding his education and care and the school themselves. They were all adament I was wrong and the school could deny my son his reception place!

At this point the battle was 5 months old and I was tired! I had almost given up………..ALMOST!

It was all arranged. My son would start his very first day at school ever in year 1.
I couldn’t bare it!
I know the school system from reception to year 4. I’ve worked in all those  years myself and I know how different each year is from the last.
I likened them starting my baby in year 1 as chucking him in the deep end……with concrete blocks tied to his feet!
I really just couldn’t fathom how a child who was already so far behind in development could possibly cope and benefit from missing an entire year of school! (and don’t even get me started on the term time holiday fines! Missing a single week of school is detrimental my arse!!)

Making Enemies

So fast forward a bit…….it’s just over 2 weeks until his first day.

I was done, I was beaten. They had won!

But then that special needs mum in me woke up again! I was lying awake crying quietly into my pillow at 2am (sadly this was nothing new at this point in the fight) and boom there she was in the back of my head. Kicking the crap out of my little broken crying lady in my head and telling to grow the fuck up and fight for her kid! She was right! My boy doesn’t have a voice so I have to use mine to fight for him!

I sent an email to my local MP outlining the basics. She replied and said she understood how stressful it must be and that she would look into it via the local council and also with the school but that time was running out and she couldn’t promise anything would be finalised in time for starting school.

She was wrong, in the best way! Friday afternoon I received a call from the head of school admissions for Essex county council. He said he had looked at the file and that whilst the school do have a say about applications the final decision rests with the local authority and he could see that we already had a letter to say he could start in reception. He said he would speak with the head teacher on Monday and get back to me with “hopefully a positive outcome for everyone”.
I put the phone down and I cried!
I wasn’t making it up! He said exactly what I had read in the policies and what I had tried to argue with anyone who would listen! I was right all along and the school could not overide what we had been told!

and the winner is…….

He was due to start in year 1 on Tuesday.
The wait for the call on Monday felt like enternity but it was worth it!
It was confirmed that he would start in Reception!

We had won!

The school called soon afterwards to remind me that reception class do not start this week and that his start date would be next Monday instead. To say she was not her usually helpful, happy self on the phone would be an understatemnt! I think it’s safe to say I’ll have made more enemies than friends amongst the school management this week but I honestly couldn’t care less!
I honestly thing I could win the lottery now and it wouldn’t make me as happy as winning thsi fight!

How can this help you?

Well for a start if you are reading this and you live in Essex, UK. You should, thankfully, never find yourself in the same situation I did.

After the royal balls up about witholding information about schools agreeing (or not in this case) on a decision,  meetings at high management level were had and I have been assured that procdures have been put in place so that this sitaution will not be able to happen again!

Unfortunately the decision to have a reception start our of cohort approved, is still very much a postcode lottery for parents.
I had lots of support from some facebook groups full of other parents who have or are trying to secure the same reception start at compulsory school age that we now have.
If you’d like more information leave a comment or drop me a message on facebook and I’d be happy to help.

If you  are fighting for a delayed school start for your little one I wish you the best of luck and remember……

No matter how hard it is and how impossible it seems we are proof that it can happen! Never give up!

B xx

How good customer service meant we were happy to pay over double our budget for a product.

Everyone knows customer service can make or break a business.
Treat your customers well and they’ll come back time and time again.

This is true regardless of whether your product is a £3 Lip balm or an £1800 laptop.

I know this to be a fact as I sell £3 Lip balm and hubs bought me an £1800 Laptop for Christmas last year.

I pride myself on offering top notch customer service in my business and it means I retain my customers for future orders meaning less time spent marketing and pitching to new customers.

The same is true for Hubs and his favorite PC building company. He bought a custom PC from PC Specialist a few years back and thanks to their awesome customer service he turned to them again when it was time to upgrade my very old and weary laptop. Personally, I was happy to spend around £600 on a bog standard, off the shelf, model. But being the tech snob that he is and knowing how good PC Specialist are at what they do he opted to spend over double my original budget on something a bit better.

How great customer service made me happy to double my budget.
Customer service is the key to success.


I realised just last week why he prefers this company to high street retailers…..half way through editing a clients photo shoot my charger decided to quit! Now, normally this would mean I’d have to scour the many replacements available on Amazon and pay out for a new one. But not this time! A quick phone call to the customer service team and a new charger was sent out and arrived 48 hours later with the promise that if it wasn’t the charger at fault my laptop would be collected and repaired before being couriered back to me. Now THAT is amazing customer service! I must admit I was always a bit cheap when it came to buying….well anything really, but sometimes, when the customer service is REALLY good I really don’t mind paying extra.

One of my business mentors has a saying: How you do anything is how you do everything.
I feel like this applies more to customer service than pretty much any other part of the business because without your customers you don’t have a business at all!



Food glorious food! – Creamy chicken and mushroom pasta.

My diet sucks!
Seriously…..the 5 a day rule is more like 5 a week in our house and, honestly, I hate it!

Personally, I blame Hubs. He’s such a fussy eater that I can count on both hands literally every food item he will eat….most of it processed crap and none of it is fruit!

Becuase of this I get stuck in a rut with cooking. I always have to cook 2 or even 3 meals a night if I want something healthy to eat and while the smallest child is still not sleeping all night I’m usually too tired to cook anything so we all end up with processed chicken and chips or pasta.

Occasionally though my body has a major strop and starts craving salads so I will motivate myself to eat more healthily but even then I struggle with trying out new things……Not this week though!


This week I decided to push the boat out and try a new recipe – I give you a stock image of Creamy Chicken and Mushroom Pasta. (mine tasted amazing but it did NOT look this good)

creamy chicken and mushroom pasta
Image: youtube – CookWithAussie

2 chicken breasts (chopped or sliced)
3 – 4 cloves Garlic (depending on how much you like it) crushed – I used this frozen garlic
250g Mushrooms (thinly sliced)
300g Pasta
Cooking oil (I used fry light spray oil so not sure how much – enough to coat a pan though)
1 Shallot
Handful of fresh parsley
1 chicken stock cube
6 tbsp cream cheese
Cheddar Cheese (optional)
Salt & pepper (optional)

  • Cook the pasta to al dente and set aside.
  • coat a deep frying pan (I use a wok myself) with a little oil and fry the chicken breast until lightly browned.
  • Add more oil if needed and add the shallot, garlic, and mushrooms and fry for 2-3 minutes.
  • Add a little of the chicken stock and reduce down. Repeat several times until mushrooms are golden.
  • Whisk the cream cheese into the remaining stock and add to the pan and bring to a boil and simmer uncovered until the sauce starts to thicken slightly.
  • Add the pasta and continue to simmer until sauce has thickened.
  • Stir in the chopped parsely. This is also where I added the cheddar as I like mine extra cheesey.
  • Season with salt and pepper and serve.

I’ve made this twice this week and it’s a new favourite now.
It also works well without the chicken and I tweaked it to add in some courgette too to up the vegetable count a bit. Both were equally delicious!

If you give it a try or have a tweak of your own let me know in the comments.

B xx



Sharing Sunday – Sharing things I love

This week’s sharing Sunday is bringing you 2 new businesses I’ve found just this week!

Becky’s Bath Bombs

I’m loving the videos Becky shares on Facebook, the fact all the ingredients she uses are clearly listed on the website and all the products have the relevant safety accreditations.
The hidden toy bath bombs are going on my wish list for the kids and I’m still trying to decide which of the unicorn style bombs or dust I want for me! <3

Sharing Sunday from - Unicorn dust by
Everyone should have a bit of unicorn dust in their lives <3
Sharing Sunday from - Hidden toy bath bomb from
Making bath time a bit more fun with a hidden toy!








Calendar Mums

My second share for today is a wonderful idea called Calendar Mums.
Rachael and local photographer Becky are organising a calendar girls style shoot showcasing mums in all shapes and sizes to create a calendar to raise money for Sands, the stillbirth and neonatal death charity.
I absolutely LOVE this idea and as a mum with wobbly, bobbly bits myself this is something I can absolutely get behind!

Sharing sunday from  - Calendar Mums
Calendar mums are promoting body confidence for all mums just as you are! <3
Sharing Sunday - Calendar Mums, CHarity calendar to raise money for Sands, the stillbirth and neonatal death charity.
A local newspaper piece about the project










5 activites under £20 to keep the kids happy this summer!

The summer holidays are here and last week came the posts on social media about how parents can’t wait to spend some family time with the kids #soblessed #makingmemories etc you know the ones!
They’ll be the same people counting down the hours until bedtime and debating if 1 pm is too early to break open the 2nd bottle of Gin in 3 days!

So when that time comes here’s ideas to keep them amused without breaking the bank.

Disclaimer: This post contains affiliate links that I may gain commission on if you click on them to purchase.

5 ways to entertain the kids under £20.


1 – Home made slip and slide.

We had hours of fun as kids with this one! We had a little green area at the front of our terraced house and the parents would take it in turns to keep watch on us while a big group of neighbourhood kids took turns messing about on a cheap strip of plastic with either a hose gently spraying it down or if a hosepipe ban was in place we’d squirt some washing up liquid on it and soak it down with water pistols! Good times! 🙂
(Note this was the 80’s and I do not recommend adding anything to help with the slipping process due to the health and safety of your little ones!)

5 summer kids activites under £20
Home made water slides keep the kids happy and cool on a hot day!


You will need:

Thick plastic sheet  – something like this is perfect!
A hosepipe or access to water.
Space  – A clear, flat piece of grass to set up and get sliding.

Check the ground carefully for anything that may cause injury!
Small stones, sticks, and prickles are all to be avoided for this one. The ground should be as flat as possible too. Too many bumps will result in bruises (believe me I know!) and dips in the ground will result in big pools which might seem like fun but for best results and less friction, I recommend keeping things as flat as possible.
Plus from a health and safety point of view, you don’t want anything that will cause the kids to speed up too much! Controlled slipping is the aim of the game here! 🙂
Then simply spray the plastic well and get sliding!

Bonus points can be awarded if you have water pistols to hand to add to the fun. 😉

2. Rock painting

Rainy day arts and crafts are always a win because let’s face it the British summer is never perfect sunshine all the time!

5 things under £20 and keep the kids happy this summer
Mini works of art for a rainy day!

You will need:

Some rocks – We collect a couple from the beach every when we visit but any medium to large stones from the garden will do. (give them a wash before you start)
Paints – again you can use pretty much anything here but I find poster paints are best with the small kids as washing out spillages is much easier! You can pick these up easily from places like the Early Learning centre, hobby craft or The works for a few quid.  Something like this works well
Finishing spray – If you want to keep your finished artworks you will need to coat them with a sealer of some kind. A coat of Mod Podge or a clear spray will work great, Both available from hobbycraft/ eBay/ Amazon etc. Both come in gloss or Matt effect so you can choose which suits you best. I use this one from Wilkinsons
Paint brushes/ applicators – you can get creative here! Try a bit of rag rolling, finger painting printing with cotton reels etc or you can just go with good old fashioned brushes!

We love this set from Amazon in our house as it has a bit of everything! 🙂



Don’t forget something to cover the kid’s clothes and the floor it could get messy! 🙂

Ideas for extending this one include adding a magnet to the back of smaller rocks to decorate the fridge, adding googly eyes to make rock monsters or why not make an audience for the kids to stage their own ‘ahem’ Rock Concert…sorry 😉

5 kids activities under £20
Bonus points for extending the activity with a ‘Rock concert’ 🙂

3. Outdoor Chalkboard

My Pud is pretty creative and loves drawing and arty stuff so we always have a stash of outdoor chalks on hand!
They are big chunky versions of the normal blackboard chalk and they can take a beating on the rough patio surfaces.

When I was shopping for our latest batch I came across this too!
Outdoor chalk stencils! (I know they think of everything these days)

These particular ones come with chalks included or you can buy different designs and chalks seperately for less than £10 and like I said they last ages!

This one is basically free art day. Let them go to town on the patio and paths and brick walls and simply wash it down or wait for it to rain and the clearing up is done for you! 🙂

5 cheap ways to keep the kids busy this summer
Extend this idea by playing some games on the pavement.

You could extend the play by using chalks for games like hopscotch , hangman, and noughts and crosses if you want to add a bit more structure.


4. Melting Snowman biscuits

Why a melting snowman? Well, it is summer after all!

A quick simple ‘baking’ idea without turning on the oven.

You will need:
Any plain round ones will do.
Icing Sugar
Chocolate Beans:
Mini smarties or the ones in the baking section work great for colour or you could just use chocolate chips.
Black writing icing or black icing pen
Twiglets or stick shaped snacks

This is an abridged ‘how to’ recipe taken from the BBC Food website.

  • Mix the icing sugar with a little water to make a smooth, thick but still runny paste.
  • spread/ drizzle the icing onto a biscuit to create the melting snow.
  • Add a marshmallow for the head and some chocolate beans/ chips for buttons and a nose.
  • break a twiglet in half and add it for the arms (if using)
  • Use the black icing to add 2 eyes and a mouth. (If not using twiglet arms you can add arms with black icing instead)
  • set until icing is dry then enjoy.

Side note: This one can get very messy but the kids LOVE it!

5. Foam pavement paint

This one is an idea from The Tiptoe Fairy
I’ve not tried it myself yet but it looks really cool so I’ll be trying it out on our next sunny day!

You will need:

  • Two 4 oz. bottles of WASHABLE school glue
  • 1 cup white flour
  • 4-5 cups plain white shaving foam
  • food coloring drops
  • 1 extra large plastic zipper bag
  • smaller plastic zip lock bags – 1 per colour
  • scissors
  • Optional: plastic squirt bottles – I’ve just ordered these for us to useThe process to make it is fairly simple but The Tiptoe Fairy explains it so well with some great step by step photos I will now pass you onto her for that bit!
    Click here to visit the tiptoe fairy’s blog

    Don’t forget to come back and tell me how it goes though!

5 activities under £20 fro teh kids this summer.
I’ll be giving this a go when the sun comes out!

If you try any of these out do let me know in the comments











Sharing Sunday – Products I love.

Drink more water!

It’s something I always say I should pay more attention to. I often get headaches that are cured quickly after I drink a big glass of water!
Check out this awesome post from Positive Health Wellness for more information about drinking enough water.

I stumbled across this gem whilst looking through some of my facebook pages to network with! I’m so ordering one of these from Hydrate M8!


A fun way to drink enough water.
This is not Gin….or is it? 😉
GReat way to get kids to drink more water!
They do a cute kids range as well!








Bee pollen tablets

Ok first off I want to make it clear this is a shameless plug for my own website!
Now that’s out of the way let me tell you why I love these tablets. I have had a hugely busy week and as usual, the smallest child has not decided to try and destroy me via the sleep deprivation method!
Some people that use these tablets report getting a bit of an energy buzz (pardon the pun) after taking them (my brother is actually a huge fan of these when he needs to get the housework done before the Mrs gets home! :p ) For me though it’s more a case of just keeping steady and not dropping off to sleep at lunchtime which I consider a win these days!

Victoria Beckham has advertised the stuff (not this particular brand mind you) as a great superfood boost sprinkled on her cereal and a superfood indeed it is! For more real and a superfood indeed it is! For more details, you can check out the blurb on the website 🙂

My midday nap is no more thanks to my bee pollen tablets
Bee pollen tablets from Forever Living.
Direct link to Bee Pollen tablets



Help! I’m stuck down a well! – My story of depression and how I am constantly striving to climb out of it.

Once upon a time, there was a girl……
She was just an ordinary girl, she wasn’t treated badly by a wicked stepmother and she wasn’t a fairytale princess or destined by some twist of fate to meet a prince and become a princess.
She was always a bit of a loner as a child and prefered the company of her books and favourite cartoon movies to the other kids her age as they would tease her for silly things, like not having the ‘right’ school bag (aka one with a big brand name emblazoned all over it which made it ‘cool’) or for not having  crush on the ‘right’ kind of boys (what could she do? She just happened to be drawn to the geeks like herself)

Every day the girl trudged through a big swamp, not to go anywhere, in particular, it seemed to be a curse that everywhere she went there was just a big energy sapping swamp to drag herself through.
It was hard, it was tiring and sometimes when a storm arrived she would find it too hard to go on so she would just sit…..up to her neck in the thick muddy waters and wait for it to pass before getting up and trudging on some more.

A few years passed and the negative comments that had been carefully stored by the girl’s brain into a special little compartment began to manifest into a little troll who lived in her head. He was a mean and nasty little grey creature, shriveled and angry looking and he liked to whisper mean things to the girl every time she thought that she deserved something good.

The Well

One day as she was dragging herself wearily through her swamp the little troll spied a water well. He directed the girl to the well and then kicked her into it!

My story of depression and how I struggle to overcome it.
Where my troll still lives.

The well was large and it was deep and the water was just a little higher than the girl was tall. Drowning would be as easy as just giving up trying.
The girl spent many years treading water in the well and the troll was happy. She was making bad choices that kept her in the water and never tried to escape the well as it was far too high and even if she made it what was the point? She would still be knee deep in swamp water right?

A few more years passed and the girl had grown up and had a baby girl of her own. She decided that a well was no place for a baby so she decided to climb out of the well. It was hard!
The walls were wet and slippery but she knew things had to change so she ignored the troll in her head and she climbed! She slipped a few times on the way up but she kept on climbing and though it took a whole year to do it she made it to the top of the well.

The troll was so unhappy that he passed out from rage and the woman and her baby found a small patch of dry grass close to the well and lived happily on their ‘island’ for a while.
Soon through the troll recovered and began whispering to the woman again. He managed to get her to visit the well a few times but he couldn’t get her back down it no matter how hard he tried.

Happily ever after?

The woman met a man who was passing by her island and they fell in love. He was a good man and he helped the woman to empty some water from her swamp. He said nice things to her many times a day and grey little troll began to shrink and become quieter.
They had 2 more children and the sun began to shine on their now much bigger island. They were happy.

Then a storm rolled in and the troll snapped awake and seized his moment! He picked the woman up and threw her back in the well.
The woman wasn’t taking this lying down though. She knew now how it felt to be happy and she knew she would get back there again! Her husband threw down a rope and helped her to begin climbing again. He tried to help as much as he could but he children needed him too so the woman climbed when he helped her and rested when he was away. Sometimes she would rest too long and more than once she slipped all the way back down to the water but she kept climbing and once again got clear of the well.

The woman and her family will probably always live on that island near the well. The little troll now lives inside the well and calls to the woman daily. Sometimes the love and laughter of her family drown out the trolls calls sometimes a storm will blow in and make his calls louder, or worse, blow her back down the well again. But she knows no matter how many times she falls down that she can get back up again and that the sunshine at the top is worth the fight.

My story of depression and my struggle to overcome it.
The only way to fail is to quit!